kier_lady_gwen

kier_lady_gwen @ 2007-09-07T08:28:00

2007-09-07T12:52:20Z

Mmmmmm.......tempting

Lemming Meme

2007-08-30T02:30:30Z

YOUR REAL NAME:
Kiersten

YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 4 letters of real name plus izzle.)
Kierizzle

YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Teal Cat

YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (your middle name and street you live on)
G Sycamore - Yes I don’t have a middle name just an initial

YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name.)
Kenki or Bauki for maiden name

YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Royal Blue Chai

YOUR ARABIC NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of you dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, and last letter of your moms middle name)
Ingaykt

YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:( Parents middle names )
Constance Raymond

YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Tink or Black Luna or Black Beta Bob or Black Tuti

Pay it forward meme

2007-08-29T17:46:30Z

Stolen from orlacarey

Pay It Forward: I will send a handmade (or at least I'll do everything I can to make it handmade) gift to the first 5 people who leave a comment here on my blog. I don't yet know what that gift will be, but you will receive it within 365 days. The only thing you have to do in return is "pay it forward" by making a similar agreement on your blog (and please do!).

Note - if you're not local I'll need an address please send to my lj name at gmail.

1) aeliakirithn-kelly
2) orlacarey
3)
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5)

I feel OLD

2007-07-25T15:56:44Z

I feel old today.

Exactly 15 years ago today….I was in a lot of pain, no pain meds for me but she was finally coming.
She was early but I held her longer than expected. She decided to try to come at 25 weeks and I spent the 9 weeks in the hospital on bed rest fighting preterm labor and preterm dilatation. I was still in labor but I was allowed go home. I was only home for week before my water broke on the July 24 and then labor stopped- completely stopped. I was induced on the 25^th first thing in the morning. She was born in the early afternoon. She was a healthy, 7 lb 6 oz baby girl with a full head of dark curly hair, bright blue eyes and was a precious little angel.

Today…She still has the dark curls, her eyes never changed they are still bright blue, she is almost 6 feet tall, she wears size 13 shoe and she is bigger than me. She is not an angel she is a TEENAGER…

Happy Birthday Miss E!

Harry Potter Wand Quiz

2007-07-23T19:40:07Z

Link: The Harry Potter Wand Test written by sputnik845 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

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Moving

2007-07-20T20:08:34Z

Moving Day is almost here! Tomorrow!

Drop me a email if you would like the new phone # and address or directions to the house.

I am so excited.

I have a great story to tell about the night we signed the lease.

We surprised my kids Wednesday Night when we picked them up. They asked where we are going tonight. I said we are going home. They then asked what’s for dinner. I said we’ll grab something on the way. We got to the end of their street and in order to leave their development we normal turn right. This time we turned left. My youngest asks “where are we going”. My oldest says “I know were we are going…Mom and Alex are taking us to the Beach Club for dinner”….then about a mile down the road we turned left, before the Beach Club. They are confused, “Where are you guys taking us” they ask again. We don’t say anything. We pull into the driveway and my oldest asks…”why are we here?” I said to him we told you we were going home. The boys start jumping up and down – screaming with excitement. I was covered with kisses – I guess they like the fact we are less than 5 minutes from their house with their Dad.

My EX on the other hand was pissed beyond belief. He sent one his hate- o-grams. I did not even bother to answer it. He is not worth it.

Cheezburger quiz

2007-07-20T13:08:33Z

Your Score: Longcat

82% Affectionate, 50% Excitable, 40% Hungry

Protector of truth.

Slayer of darkness.

Loooooong.

Longcat may seem like just a regular lengthy cat, but he is, in fact, looong. For proof, observe the longpic.

It is prophesized that Longcat and his archnemesis Tacgnol will battle for supremacy on Caturday. The outcome will change the face of the world, and indeed the very fabric of lolcatdom, forever.

Be grateful that the test has chosen you, and only you, to have this title.

To see all possible results, checka dis.

Link: The Which Lolcat Are You? Test written by GumOtaku on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Lets play the Good News Bad News Game !

2007-07-17T16:44:24Z

This is one of those good news bad news days…..

The Good News …..

The car passed Maryland inspection and finally has MD plates.

The Bad News…..

My driver's license is still suspended caught in red tape snafu between New Hampshire and an unpaid ticket in New Jersey…NH still says the ticket must be paid and $100 fine paid to the state of NH in order release my driving privileges and then for me to get my Maryland License – or – we can get the state of New Jersey to issue a clearance letter saying that the ticket is taken care of. However New Jersey cannot issue a clearance letter for a ticket that doesn't exist. We have filled an appeal and are waiting to see what happens next

The Really Really Good News

We are moving this Saturday.  We have secured an apartment about 2 minutes from the kids house in Calvert County).  It is a cute little 2 bed room apartment well within our price range and includes utilities.


Bad News….maybe not bad but disappointing

To be honest….I have been hoping for the past few weeks that our friend from New Hampshire would back out of  Pennsic thus leaving us to gracefully step out of the trip with out disappointing him but we haven't been heard from him in about a month. We needed to take our apartment right away or lose it…So after much discussion we have decided that as much as we would have enjoyed our first Pennsic, it would leave us too tight for the month of August.

I have been so sick over the past several months and missed a lot of time at work, Alex & I have used all of our vacation time; we both would have to take the Pennsic War week without pay.  We have reviewed the finances and while we could honestly do it, we would be flat broke at the event (even to the point where we're looking at classes and hemming and hawing about the ones that charge more than buck for the classes) and we would be tight for the next several weeks afterward. We have a choice. We could go to Pennsic and be very tight until September (we're talking ramen noodles and mac-n-cheese tight)what with keeping up with rent (we really would like to not tick off our new landlord by being late with the rent). Or we can not go to Pennsic, eat well, not stress out over finances, keep the landlord happy and the pantry filled with good food and start setting aside $30 a week for next Pennsic and go with over $1,500 in spending money.
At Least this year we got closer than ever before!

Good News ….More time to sew and be ready for next year.

Kier

I feel old.

2007-07-13T16:12:38Z

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Can you say Doh

2007-07-11T13:06:30Z

I feel like a bad country and western song…..(a pissen and moaning type song) The cat died, the washer ran away and the truck don’t work…twang….The flood washed away all our be-longings and the doublewide…twang….. Your drivers license is suspended…..twang…and there ain’t no Beer !!!!

Last week I went to the DMV to finally get my Maryland drivers license & MD license plates . I held NH plates so long because of the insurance. Our Maryland insurance is more than double our NH insurance OH Well. The people at the DMV were wonderful and so nice, I was surprised…I was told horror stories of MD DMV. I had to do my plates first. I got my Maryland plates Yeah! Next step drivers licensee. I had all the paper work and everything is going smoothly. They take my picture (I am wearing my fav. Blouse and I even liked the picture). I surrender my NH drivers license. She runs a check and Bamm my driving privileges come up suspended. They say they are sorry…(insert the Seinfield - SOUP NAZI voice) NO LICENSE for YOU. They give me a number to call. I call NH and get the rudest person ever. She says you have an outstanding ticket in New Jersey. I know I don’t of any tickets, I only ticket I ever got was in 1987. She gives me a number to call in NJ and says I have to pay $100 for reinstatement after they receive a clearance letter from NJ. I call NJ DMV. They look me up and they do not find any ticket for me. They pass me around to about 10 different customer service people, all who can’t find any outstanding tickets. I call NH back and explain this to them and ask them for a reference # for the ticket. I call NJ back go through it all again. NJ says there is no ticket for me and the reference # does not match me. I ask them to issue the clearance letter. New Jersey says they can’t, since there is nothing to clear. I go back and forth with them but they do not budge. I call NH and they don’t budge – they have to have the clearance letter and $100. I call NJ back…I have talked to them so many times I have learned all their names. Tracy in the DMV office in NJ finally agreed to call NH. She said to give her till Friday to try and resolve it.

I spoke to Tracy on Monday and she said there was not anything they could do. NH must have a clearance letter, which they can’t issue. I will need to file an official appeal to the suspension.

During all this my MD insurance company ran a check and guess what my driver’s license is suspended. They called and I explained everything to the Lady from the insurance company. I just got a call from the insurance lady. The very nice woman did her own investigating – NO Tickets for me in any state. She even called NH and they told her what they have been telling me. The insurance company is going to help me file the appeal, but in the mean time…no driving for me. d’oh.

If it weren't for bad luck I would not have any luck at all.

kier_lady_gwen @ 2007-06-28T20:27:00

2007-06-29T00:28:25Z

Brilliant and spiritual! You are a Mystic Theurge!
Score! You have a prestige class. A prestige class can only be taken after you�ve fulfilled certain requirements. This may mean that you�re an exceptionally talented person, but it probably doesn't.
The Mystic Theurge is a combination of a cleric and a mage. They can cast both arcane and divine spells, and are good at both, making them pretty terrifying on the battlefield. They have more raw spellpower than just about any other class.
You're both intelligent and faithful, but not violent or deceitful. I guess that makes you a pretty good person.

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kier_lady_gwen @ 2007-06-28T20:17:00

2007-06-29T00:18:59Z

You scored high on femininity and low on masculinity. You have a traditionally feminine personality.

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Link: The Bem Sex Role Inventory Test written by weirdscience on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

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Thankful Thursday

2007-06-28T20:38:35Z

What am I thankful for this Thursday?

1) I am thankful for: My dearest, loving and supportive husband. He takes care of me, he worries about me and he makes me smile even when I think I will burst in total tears. I love you !

2) I am thankful for: Good and understanding friends. I missed you all this past weekend. I did try to come. Hugs to you all.

3) I am thankful for: My wonderful kids…You guys ROCK! The boys were so wonderful when I was sick last weekend.

4) I am thankful for: Modern Medicine. A week after being in the hospital I am feeling much better.

5) I am thankful for: A wonderful group of people to camp with at Pennsic. I am so happy to be included in the DC camp.

6) I am thankful for: The Pennsic Class schedule….I am going to “OD” on classes. How do you pick between 3 classes all offered at the same time? – I know - A dice ROLL! OH I wish I could clone myself.

7) I am thankful for: A weekend with just my sweetie…Cuddle pounces – no munchkins!

8) I am thankful for: Air Conditioning….just walk outside and you’ll agree

9) I am thankful for: Our Wonderful and great friend Stephie from NH and that fact she loves the SCA so much and brought our NH gang to their first event. In fact it was her first event too. DC will see you for Pennsic 2008! You are doing so great in your classes we are so proud of you!

10) I am thankful for: Our friend Ben from NH for making Pennsic his 2^nd ever event and camping with us. (a 2^nd big thank you for DC for allowing Ben to join us)- If you like to dance – see Ben – Dancing is his first love. We know what he’ll be doing all Pennsic long.

11) I am thankful for: The love a great soul, he is my dearest brother (in all but blood) My Nax. You always make me feel good- even if I am just talking to your answering machine. Pennsic 2008 (even if I have to come up there and kidnap you!)

12) I am thankful for: Matt and Kelly. I love you guys!

13) I am thankful for: Thursday……it is almost Friday.

Hugs to you all

Love Kier

Book Meme

2007-06-28T17:29:46Z

Book Meme from eridun
1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 23.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.

There were two in my backpack under my desk.

Book 1

Kevin Trudeau

Natural Cures “They” don’t Want You to Know About

(a real conspiracy theory book – shhhh it is all Big Brother’s fault you are sick – and everything can be cured by stop taking your medicines and with a high colonics every other day) My boss meant well when she bought it for me.

Page 23 has a list of names.

American Health Information management system

The 5th real sentence – (really on page 24)

These associations do not represent you, they represent their members: the companies, the corporations, and the people that are making the money.

book 2

My real book…the one I am really reading.

Tanith Lee

White as Snow, Red as Blood a dark sensual retelling of “Snow White”

Here the queen stands revealed as a full-fledge witch, sorceress, or alchemist, creating potions in a “secret, lonely room where no one ever came”.

Which Dr. Seuss Book Are YOU

2007-06-28T02:06:32Z

You are: Horton Hears a Who!

Horton Hears a Who! is a story about an elephant with a good heart and an activist ethic. Like Horton, you're a very nice person, and you're very observant about the world around you. You are more likely to get involved with political or activist causes. You also tend to be more whimsical and creative than down to earth.

The lower your Grinchification score, the nicer you are.
The higher your Cathatitude/Hoponpoppiness score, the more whimsical and creative you are.
The higher your Loraxity score, the more concerned you are with the world around you, politics and activism.

Other Categories

Marvin K. Mooney, Will You Please Go Now! The Lorax The Cat in The Hat Green Eggs and Ham Oh, The Places You'll Go Hop on Pop If I Ran the Zoo How The Grinch Stole Christmas! The Butter Battle Book Yertle The Turtle Fox in Socks

If you liked this test, please take the time to rate it! Thanks!

Maybe you'd like to try one of my other tests:

The Totally Random A-Z Trivia Test
The What is your Learning Style Test

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Challenge minus "the MOM"/Chancellor of Minors

2007-06-25T20:39:27Z

Hi All,

I did not make the Challenge of the Heart event this weeknd. I had some neat projects for the kids. A cooling “COOL” beaded necklace project made from damp sponges cut into bead shapes, basic sewing card project (bears, lady bugs, frogs and clowns) and a candle painting project. Plus 2 games to play and make up shadow puppet play. I have been told that the children attending had a great time but there were no organized activities.

OK ….Why did I not show up???

Well, Friday I wasn’t feeling well. Achy and dizzy if I moved to fast. Plus as stated in my previous post my sugar was elevated and we were trying to get it to go down. I figured the dizziness was the side effect if being so high. Right before lunch I went up to do some filing in the file room. I got so dizzy that I fell down and could not get up again. Everyone thought I’d gone to lunch. When the receptionist realized that I was not had not she went looking for me. She found me on the file storage room floor, I was so dizzy and I was unable to stand with out help. They got me back into the AC and I checked my blood sugar…OH POOPIE – 487 (normal should be less than 130). I called Joslin and they said I needed to go to the nearest Emergency Room, my co-workers wanted to call rescue I did not want that. I called my Dad and he came up and took me to the ER. Joslin called them and let them know I was on my way. Alex came up after they put the wheels back on the station wagon (we were getting the brakes serviced). When I got to the ER my sugar was 491. All kinds of tests later and an IV with an insulin drip. They found out that my white count was elevated. The Doctor checked my ears they found both were infected. My family Dr noticed the fluid in my ears 2 weeks ago and said that it was ok and to take some Sudafed. It wasn’t that painful so I did not think there was anything wrong other than normal allergies and my ears hurt when my sinuses are bad. The ER said an inner ear infection caused the dizziness. The infection also caused the increased in blood sugar, it is also what inhibited the insulin from working (this is the exact same thing that happened when I had phenomena this past FEB). They added IV antibiotics and something for the dizziness, About 3 hours later the numbers started to drop. The meds made me tired. As if someone flipped a switch the ER went crazy busy. I no longer need intense care and I guess they needed the bed space. I was discharged and sent home to get rest and stay off my feet. We picked up the boys and went home. Alex ran some of the Children’s corner stuff up to the event. I slept until he got home, then I ate a little something and went back to sleep. I got up in the morning and I was still dizzy but I was trying to get it all together to make the event. Finally the boys and Alex put their collective feet down and I went back to bed. I slept until 2pm. I did feel better when I got up. Weak but better.

On Sunday afternoon we took the boys to the Cove Point Pool. I went into the pool careful not to get my head in the water, I basically sat on the edge of the pool and watched the boys dive and go down the waterslides. I lasted about 20 mins before I needed to rest, I slept in the sun for about 2 hours while the boys played. I guess I wasn’t ready for such an adventure.

Where we are today, my blood sugar numbers are down and not climbing. (160-200 range) I rattle when I walk from all the meds I am taking. I am still tired, but I will live.

I just feel so bad about not making the event. I did not want to disappointed the children.

All is not well on the Diabetes front...

2007-06-22T03:16:32Z

My blood sugar for some unknown reason has decided to spike. I honestly have been following the new regiment to a T and have not cheated on the diet plus we increased the walking. I got my stress level down and my sugar goes up.

I called JDC* and they are really concerned. They are having me take rapid release insulin shots and upping my bed time Lantas Insulin again. So far it really hasn't helped. I am still climbing and I feel like doo-doo. Now is not the time for this nonsense, I have way too much to do.

Kier

*JDC Joslin Diabetes Center.

SCA meme

2007-06-21T21:01:22Z

SCA meme:

1. How and when did first find out about the SCA?

I have always been fond of fantasy and renaissance themes. In 2001 I subscribed to Renaissance Magazine. I was reading it at the Doctors office were I worked at when one of my patients saw it. She and her husband are in the SCA (Barony of Stonemarch East Kingdom) and they are also the owners of the Vermont Renaissance Festival (a different kind of Ren Faire – a Ren faire for serious living history and SCA people - everything is juried. No elf ears or turkey legs http://www.vtrenfest.com/index.html ). Ann told me about the SCA and said I would love it. Do to my home situation I was unable to go play. In 2003 The SCA was the first activity I tried after I separated from my first husband.

2. What made you wanna come play?

The description Ann gave me was so wonderful, she said I would love it.

3. Did you ever take sewing/cooking/archery/(other things that are found within the SCA) classes in school?

YES - My mother owned and ran a ceramic’s studio and craft shop out of our home when I was growing up. She gave classes several nights a week and on the weekends, I was her helper and test student for new projects. I learned to pour/prep and paint ceramics, spin, weave, embroidery, all different types of crafts, to knit and to sew at a very early age. I even taught a few classes for her when I was in High School. I started learning to cook when I was 5-6 and by the time I was 10 I was helping out and cooking dinner for the family. In high school I took home-Ec and took Archery for my gym for 3 years.

4. Why do you play now?

It feels like home. I finally feel like I fit in. I have made some really good friends.

5. Do you make your own garb?

Yes mine, Alex’s, the children and now our friends that we introduced the SCA their first event was memorial day weekend this year. (one of our dearest friends is making Pennsic the 2nd event he will be going too and he needs Garb)

6. Do you fight (heavy/rapier)?

7. Have you ever bartered with anyone?

No, but I would be open to it.

8. What was your first event?

Lakewood Lion’s Ren-Faire Demo in Lakewood NJ run by the local SCA chapter. My first SCA event was Ghost Goblins and Ghouls.

9. Describe your first garb.

I wore loaner – Italian Ren for the first couple events. The first piece of garb I owned you may have seen. It is the Navy blue Italian Ren laces up the front and a white cotton chemise. This dress is now my daughters (that is after I let the hem out so she could wear it)

10. Do any of the friends you had before the SCA now play also?

I have friends (My son “A” god Parents or per “A” his “fairy God Parents” – “A” was so cute when he was little) they live back up in New Hamp-ster. They want to play but Stonemarch is a huge Barony and they mostly play on the sea coast side of the state and they live in the mountains on the opposite side. (2-3 hours away) She also works a weird schedule, which will make it difficult to play.

11. What were some of your favorite books/stories as a kid?

Chronicles of Narnia and the legend of King Arthur

12. Have you registered a name?

YES

13. Have you registered Arms?

Not yet

14. What is you favorite "No Sh*t, there I was" story?

I can’t think of one right now.

15. What A&S stuff are/could you be interested in?

Lace making, Garb, Subtleties, Cordial Making, children’s playthings with in period, puppetry, Viking Wire weaving, knitting, pzanky eggs, silk painting, dyeing, Archery (need new bow first), herbs and gardening,

Thankful Thursday

2007-06-21T17:53:14Z

A friend of mine does Thankful Thursday Lists every Thursday and I hope she doesn’t mind but I would also like to do this. It is so sweet and makes you have to stop and think what is really important in life and the real world.

I am thankful for my children. I love them so much. They are my pride and joy even though they drive me INSANE!!!!! I have been told that teenagers will do that.

I am thankful for my husband, my soulmate, my compliance officer and my partner in crime. He went to Joslin with me. He is trying so hard to help me stay inline and is so supportive with my treatment. He puts up with the tons and tons of self doubt I have. He gracefully deals with my emotional craziness, besides he helped me I hide the Bodies this time ! (insert evil Laugh here)

I am SOOOooo thankful for Joslin Diabetes Center for opening a branch in Lanham, MD. I know they will get me back on track soon…..gosh I hope so.

I am thankful for sugar free cookies and sugar free Ice cream….they are my diet sanity savers.

I am thankful for good friends who stand behind me and support me even through my struggles.

I am thankful for my great friend – Kelly who is always there with a hug and support then provides the voice of reason. I will do anything for her…anything…..HUGS…the shirt off my back….. a kidney…my first born.

I am thankful for nice job. I work with wonderful caring people.

I am thankful to my Mom for finding a new OFF bug spray that doesn’t stink or irritate my skin and best of all it works !!!!!!!

I am thankful for Blockbuster Online. WOW- I have seen movies I haven’t seen for 20 years, it is like meeting up with old friends –(Dr Phibes I missed you !!!! ). We then can return them to the store and get free rentals for the ones they send us through the mail.

The last thing I am thankful for will seem a bit strange…I am thankful to all the people who pushed my buttons on Monday and most of all to the last person. This person I would never have thought would have, who did. I thank her most of all! She was the straw that killed mousie kier and she did me a favor. Disrespect and hurt feelings were on both sides and I am hopeful that we can move on from here. The new an improved KIER will not take poopie from anyone any longer, my only regret is how is how I pushed back and how hard. A lesson well learned, it won’t happen that way again. I am truly thankful for her.

Soul Color Kinda sort of me but.....

2007-06-21T14:16:00Z

What color is your soul painted?

Orange

Your soul is painted the color orange, which embodies the characteristics of balance, heat, enthusiasm, flamboyance, playfulness, aggression, over-emotion, danger, desire, strengthens the ability to concentrate, attraction, adaptability, and stimulation. Orange falls under the element of Fire, and symbolizes glory and fruits of the earth.

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Diabetes

2007-06-20T19:34:32Z

Diabetes.

My trip to the Joslin Diabetes Center was wonderful. They were very kind and patient with me. My intake with Carolyn was 3- 4hours, she took a through history and was very comforting.

I have a team looking after me now. They have scrapped my old instructions and gave me a new regiment to follow. I will be taking my blood sugar at different times of the day and I will be taking my medication at different times. I will follow back up with the specialist again on the phone. In two weeks I go back to meet with Carolyn on July 5 and then to meet with the nutritionalist who will tailor make a diet for me and I will also meet with the excersise-phyologist- ok an exercise specialist to create an exercise plan for me on July 6^th. After these appointments I will meet with other members of my team.

I called in my numbers today. I am still elevated but I have leveled out. No more extreme swings. Carolyn said the next step is to lower the fasting sugars. OK another change to the medications and more insulin. I am to call back in a week. I am also to reduce my stress levels and get more walking in. (Lower my stress after everything that has happen this week would be good).

apology

2007-06-20T15:52:01Z

I apologize. I was beyond angry and used a term that I have heard for years and was causing a heated debate… I was lashing out, since several jerks decided I was fair game, I pushed back. What I did was no better. People approach the SCA differently, some take it very seriously, while I may not agree with everything they say every time, we should all have the right to say it, with out fear. We should also bare in mind the feelings of other when we do. In this case this was something I did not do. I will never use the term Period N**I again. It is offensive and not fair. I am sorry.

Kier

My prev. Rant

2007-06-19T16:16:11Z

Deep breath….in….. out….breathe.

Hi All !

Well, that was not a typical Kier anything. That was so not like me, but being put down for billionth time finally broke the camels back. Kier is always quiet sweet and good, always worried what people think about her and she never swears, butter would not melt in her mouth. I was nailed about 4 times yesterday these were well before my first post and I did nothing to warrant them. All the hate that has been thrown around lately has been getting to me. The problems with my Pages stuff. Then my post that someone took offense too and she got high and might about. It all went down hill. Then enter my EX. – To be honest - I lost it.

I have calmed down a bit.

As for the post . I am deleting it, I was so incensed. I was and still am tired of being treated badly. I am sick people who think they are my betters (for what ever reasons) putting me down or down playing my feelings. I am sick of any one who does this to anyone else. It is just plain wrong and if I see it I am going to tell that person that as well.

I don’t want to be thought of some she-witch, just someone frustrated beyond belief and who was pushed beyond her breaking point. She was pushed because these people thought they could get away with it and don’t like the fact that this time I pushed back . I got pissed and vowed never to let it happen again.

I kinda like having a backbone and maybe I will keep this new set of brass ones and take them for a test drive. I traded in my kiss-butt lips for them.

Well back to happy thoughts and nice posts. No more she-witches.

At least for now –Grrrr – Don’t make me angry – you would not like me when I am angry ;-)

Diabetes

2007-06-13T17:35:26Z

Since they discovered that I have diabetes this past winter, my blood sugar has been up and down like a yoyo and with out rhyme or reason. I did bring my A1C from 9.9 to a 7.4.showing I have been trying. I have been gaining weight steadily, even though I have been eating better. I have been having migraines. I have felt far worse than I ever did before the diagnosis. I almost want to give up and pretend that I don’t have it.

Tomorrow I will be going to the Joslin diabetes center. They are the premier Diabetes Center in the world. The main branch is in Boston at Harvard U. Most of the diabetics in my family have gone to Joslin, (like many member of my family we have difficulty regulating). Joslin has worked wonders for them. I found that they opened one in Lanham, MD (DC branch). I had to fight with my Dr to get a referral to a specialist. They did not want to give me one saying that they could mange my diabetes, but after I ended up in the hospital again, Alex and I decided no more fooling around. I screamed and yelled and got the referral. Alex will be going with me. I am excited and scared at the same time.

Help....Why is this bothering me

2007-06-09T04:22:05Z

I did something stupid tonight. I stumbled on my EX- husbands my space, and read his BLOG. It was very upsetting. In fact it was awful. He definitely has issues and he was throwing a first class pity party. Poor poor Steve. He had comments from one of our friends saying how much a jerk I was and how much she feels so sorry him.

He makes it sound like I don’t have anything to do with raising the children. The truth is that demanded custody (in fact claimed that if I left him I would never see the children). We have joint custody. He got custodial status because he was a teacher and he claimed he had the same schedule as the kids. I have the kids 2 nights a week and every other weekend and I take them when ever he asks without question.(it usually ends up being 3 weekends out of 4). I speak to the kids every day. I don’t miss the kid’s concerts, sporting events and school programs.

He also claimed that he worked 60 plus hours a week, something he hasn’t done since 1997. He did not mention that he worked only 3 months in 1999. He doesn’t mention that he did not work at all for 5 years while I put him through college. Steve was a total control freak. He said it wasn’t problem that I wasn’t happy and he did not want to work to make it better. He also forgot he was out almost every night or the fact he was cheating on me during most of our marriage- How about that fact he was abusive, even once broke my arm and regularly left me with more bruises than I can count.

I try to be polite to him, I try to work with him for the sake of our children, what I get back is HATE and he is always totally rude. He sends me hate emails and refuses to talk to me about the children. I have suggested a mediator or family counseling. He refused. (We did try family therapy after we separated – after 3 sessions he claimed the counselor was against him and would not go any longer)

What I don’t know is why Steve’s Blog or the comments from some one whom I thought was my friend is really troubling me. I did not post anything back to either one of them.

I found happiness and I am thankful for that. I will try to forget it and go cuddle my loving hubby. Per my Grandmother …”the Anti-Steve”